After years working up the corporate ladder and feeling a true belonging, I thought I’d nailed it; the perfect job, fantastic and supportive husband and 2 boys at the time being 14 and 7. We had our dream home and conversation with the hubby turned to having our third baby to make our family unit complete. We booked our (romantic) weekend away to the lakes and a month or so later we were pregnant and it felt like a bit of a fairy-tale, everything was just slotting in nicely and we as a family were overjoyed. My pregnancy was a breeze apart from a little bit of sickness at the beginning and walking like a robot at the end due to the size he was and having SPD (symphysis pubis dysfunction) so hobbled towards the end and on crutches in the final stages.. It didn’t stop me from working in my dream job until a couple of weeks before my due date.. There was a little uncertainty in my job due to the never ending restructures but I trusted and believed all would be good.. However I was completely wrong and my world took a complete change in direction. Family wise all was and still is great and I gave birth to a bouncing 9 lb 10oz baby who is now the ripe old age of 20 months.
The ins and outs of the job isn’t significant, however I would like to share the impact that stress and anxiety had on me as a result of being felt like a number, being let down, that I wasn’t good enough and also becoming a new mam ‘again’ nearing the big 40.. I want to say though its not all doom and gloom. When I was stressed I found something amazing happened too.
The challenges that surfaced for me around my stress, unearthed trauma from years ago, which led to me ensuing counselling and spiritual work. Now sometimes the word stress can be bounced around so many times that it isn’t taken as seriously as it should be. The impact that it has in all areas of your life is huge! On reflection this was my lowest point and knew from that moment that my life had to change. Letting go of challenges was enlightening and I knew health should not be taken for granted. I revaluated all aspects of my lifestyle and turning 40 was a huge wake-up call that life was for living so I had to break free from ground hog day. It was so important to me at this point to gain back control of my health and wellbeing and to love myself enough to live a healthy lifestyle.
My life experiences have given me the strength and courage to help others find their happy on a much deeper level and to create a healthy sustainable lifestyle. I meet with a nutritionist monthly gaining vast knowledge of how food nourishes the body, and to feel and look good on the outside the work first begins on the inside. I completed my studies with the Health Coach Institute and Holistic MBA where I am fully educated at a deeper level around setting up conditions for inevitable success, finding which foods are right for the body, how stress impacts on the body and health and the art and science of habit change so people can get real lasting results. I am a great believer in learning and I am soon to be qualified in all areas of life coaching too and taking on further training in mindfulness.
Throughout my journey I have found a love for kundalini yoga ‘The yoga of awareness’ which has helped me to connect my body, mind and emotions and I begin my journey to become a kundalini yoga teacher next week, and what a journey that’s going to be – I’ll keep you posted on that in upcoming blogs.
I’ve found my happy in health, lifestyle and surround myself with like-minded people. It is here and now that I feel in alignment to who I am, feeling more energised, full of love and making healthier choices for me and my family.
I’m not perfect and I do not deprive/restrict myself like some diets out there do which I find are not sustainable. In my life I do not judge, life is for living. What I do now is be curious as to how or what my body is saying which tends to influence healthier choices. I am committed to sharing my journey and growing with you to find your balance in life, health and wellbeing.
#iamenough is my mantra for this year.
I have made New Year’s resolutions so many times only to break them with every excuse I can think of.. Resolution simply implies a problem to begin with that needs to be resolved and that is no longer where and who I am.. When you start from a problem place, how are you supposed to move through it with positivity? It becomes an effort – like pushing a huge boulder up a hill.. I am adopting a mantra following my tribes kind words and have worked hard for the last 2 years to find my inner strength and self.
I am very much an advocate of living in the NOW! and the book the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle was an eye opener – and of course what stress has taught me too – ‘all negativity is caused by an accumulation of psychological time and denial of the present. Unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry – all forms of fear – are caused by too much future, and not enough presence. Guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness, bitterness and all forms of non-forgiveness are caused by too much past and not enough presence.’
I have had so many learns through my journey that I am making it my mission to help as many people as I can who have felt at their lowest, unhappy, or just not living the fulfilled life they want and to find their happy within themselves.
I would love to reach out to as many people as I can so please share and I would love to hear from you too.